My testimony, part 3 - Seeking God.

While many aspects of my life seemed to have "worked out," many did not. The power of wearing a mask, living a lie, and attempting to run from God became apparent and painful. Avoidance, lack of understanding, denial and a deep need for the truth brought me to 1st January 2024, and led to writing this prayer in my journal after purchasing an online version of the NASB (The New American Standard Bible) with the intention to finally read it again. 

​“God, how do I read this Bible. Such a rich, wise word.  God-breathed words combined into one book. How do I truly find Your plan for me? How do I listen to Your voice; hear what is meant for me; truly live close to You? What does it all mean? Where do I start?  Show me God. Teach me. Tell me.  I feel I don't know and remember enough to be seen and pulled back into your plan, or was my life up to this moment part of your plan?  . . .

Is this it - is this what my life is supposed to be, day after day​. As I’m writing these words, I hear the verse in my soul:  For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. Jer 29: 11 – 13.  How do I do this? God will you be my guide?”​

God revealed Himself in profound and clear ways since these and many other prayers and time spent with Him. 

God has changed my life, completely. He renewed my heart. He renewed my mind.

God has shown me without any doubt that His word is true. That He is faithful. That He wants to spend time with me. That He cannot lie and when He makes a promise in His word, He will keep it.

God has paid the biggest price to make sure I am reconciled with Him through Jesus.  

Continue reading my testimony - part 4.